I'm so conflicted on what to rate this book.

On the one hand, I was objectively aware the whole time that the writing was pretentious, the lack of dialogue spacing and tags a style that always seems to try too hard in my mind. But if I ignored the part of me that kept noticing that, the prose was excellent. I could so clearly understand the emotional turmoil within our protagonist. Maybe it's because I'm also a lesbian? Something about the way it was written struck a note with me. I have never felt so seen in a lesbian novel before.

I don't know. The last 30 pages I kept wondering, what do I think of this book? What do I think of it objectively? Is it something I would recommend to other people? How does it make me feel at the end?

Even the way I'm writing this review is sounding more flowery than I usually would write.

Anyway, I still don't know how I feel about the book or how it made me feel. But like I said, I feel like this is written specifically for lesbians. In the end, I felt like I had to give it 4.5 stars. Would otherwise be a 5, but the strange dialogue choices irritated me; I felt like I could never get used to it and kept getting confused.

But it's been a while since I gave a book 5 stars on here, so I decided to round up instead of down.