the back and forth perspectives by the two main characters is well-done and distinctive, portraying an enemies-to-friends(+) that is only half antagonistic to begin with. the random assortment of orphans led by Eris seems a bit overkill on the zany wunderkid trope but it's believable that a few come across as two-dimensional from her narration as a defense mechanism and from Sona's as a newcomer. thrilling heroics against terrible odds, gruff sweethearts, and complex villain/protagonist dynamics! sword fighting? emotional damage, and I'm not just talking about that cliffhanger ending. good thing the next book is already published

♡ Slow Burn

♡ Found Family

♡ Sapphic Sci-fi

Sona and Eris were absolutely iconic and I love them so much.   I enjoyed this book so much.  The found family was everything and the writing in general was really amazing.  Every scene was set perfectly and the atmosphere described so well.

The duel point of view was done so beautifully.  Seeing the differences in personalities between Eris and Sona was kinda hilarious at times.  They had a bit of banter between them which was great and the flirting was lovely too.

Overall, it was so easily to fall into the world of this book, to love the characters and be there cheering them on.  

Spice Level: n/a

Angst Level: 💧(1/5)

POV: Duel, First Person

Release Date: 29, June 2021

Rep: Lesbian (Main Character), Bisexual? (Main Character), LGBTQIA+ Characters, BIPOC Characters

I enjoyed this book!! However, it also made me realize that YA scifi/fantasy isn't really my thing anymore... In short, read this if you like character-driven stories focused on relationships (romantic and otherwise), and don't mind a typical YA writing style and plot. 

So, I loved the characters in this, especially the two main characters. I felt really connected to them, felt they were distinct, easily rooted for them, and loved their relationship and all of its developments. I also loved pretty much all of the side characters even though they weren't very fleshed out (I thought that was okay because this book really focused on the two MCs). The found family dynamic in this was amazing as well. 

The atmosphere of this book was really cool and I enjoyed the idea of the Windups (mechas) and Gearbreakers. But I will say that the worldbuilding was... kinda bad tbh. I didn't really understand the whole thing with the Windups being gods but also not really, and there was a lot of worldbuilding infodumping early on in the book that didn't really make logical sense... 

And this leads me to my point about this book making me realize that maybe I need to stop reading YA scifi/fantasy. The iffy worldbuilding and teenagers-overthrowing-an-evil-government plot strongly reminded me of all those YA dystopias that were really popular back in the 2010s. Don't get me wrong, not all of those were bad, and I think this is leagues better than a lot of them (especially relationship/character-wise) but I'm starting to realize that I'm finally tired of those types of books. 

And the writing style was the worst offender in terms of YA typicality. The author is definitely talented and I'm sure a lot of people will love her writing, but to me it just felt so... overdone. Overdramatic. Dare I say... "I'm 14 and this is deep"? Even when I empathized/agreed with things the characters were feeling or thinking, I couldn't stand the way the author phrased them. And there were so many one-line paragraphs! 

So. 

Many. 

Why? Just why?

And this is coming from someone who loves flowery, metaphor-heavy writing (ex. Laini Taylor). It wasn't done well here in my opinion. It wasn't unreadable, but did make the story a bit clunky at times, especially during fast-paced action scenes. I just think that the writing style and the plot and world are so deeply YA, which is totally okay! Just not something I am super into anymore. 

You're probably wondering why, after that rant, I'm giving it 4/3.5 stars, but it's because, despite my complaints, I had a lot of fun reading this! I really enjoyed the characters, their relationships, and the found family dynamic. I found it relatively easy to read and fun. I'm also hoping that the worldbuilding will get a little more solid in the sequel, which I will be reading because I want to see the characters get a happy ending (hopefully). 

However, no matter how enjoyable I found this book to be, I don't think I want to read any more fun but shallow YA dystopian/scifi/fantasy stories anymore. This very well may be my last one. Actually, that will probably be the sequel to this book, but oh, well. Point still stands. 

Man was this novel fast-paced! It truly left the ground running and took the story in a direction I wasn’t entirely expecting. I was so hooked very time I picked the book up. I thought the mecha fight scenes were written really well (they were incredible to imagine), although I will say the fight-rest-repeat pattern of the latter part became a touch repetitive. I thought Mikuta could have teased out campus politics to provide some variety. But I really enjoyed the plot overall. 

The characters were definitely the strength of this book. The two POV characters, Eris and Sona, were distinct from the off which was a great sign. It only got better when the narrative drew out their complexities. Both are filled with anger and the purpose of toppling Godolia. Eris has been trained to be a leader and feels so much responsibility and love for her crew. Her emotions feel like a vulnerability for her and so she grows thorns even though she just wants to be soft. I felt particularly compelled by Sona, though, being a person straddling the lines between human and bot and desperately trying to land as the former. She is terrified of herself and what she’s done, so her deepest wish is to be loved regardless. I found the scenes where she grapples with herself so heartfelt. I just got so attached to both MCs in a way that doesn’t often happen to me. I think the raw writing style really showcased the emotional state of the characters, giving the reader something real to resonate with.

Because Eris and Sona were such dynamic characters, the romance they shared was utterly believable. While there is instant attraction (at least on Sona’s part), it wasn’t instalove. Instead, Mikuta makes sure to include a range of scenes where the MCs explore and deepen their connection. The tension she crafted was spot-on. In my opinion, this was a good execution of the enemies-to-lovers trope. 

In terms of world-building, I understood why the mechas were created and how they shaped the world as it was in this book. However, there was bigger-picture context missing in terms of how far in the future we were and what the global situation was. I also wanted more description of how religious colonisation impacted culture in Godolia and beyond. I was interested to know if religious and political conformity meant cultural conformity as well, as there was some evidence to the contrary in this book. I wanted to know what clothes, food, languages, etc. existed and why. So in this way the world-building was not fully realised and ended up being a bit plain.

HOLY SHIT! Ok it’s like a little slow at the beginning BUT I SWEAR JUST KEEP GOING IT GETS SO GOOD. I’m immediately buying the sequel.

Can tell it’s not for me, stopping now.

Review to come