This is painfully awkward writing - with the awareness that it must be so. But ugh. I found myself scanning through the diary entries.

The later part, where she talks about her relationship with fandom and the comments about how aging intrudes in the fantasy. ... when I read that I openly wept here in the ferry station in Uruguay... I wish she had been around to see how first gen female fans saw General Organa as a role model we could use in our own middle age. We are not defined by our waistlines.