I'm torn with how I feel about this one. I really didn't enjoy it while I was reading it, and it felt like a chore to pick it up. I started it in May, got to 15%, and set it down until November because I immediately couldn't stand Him.

It’s hard to understand how this man got his hooks into Enola in the first place. He’s a dick to her right off the bat, she initially thinks he is unattractive, he’s rude to her friends the first time she ever sees him… He gave immediate red flags, without any redeeming qualities to shroud them. I was reminded of Genevieve Wheeler's Adelaide, but with a FMC that you aren't sure you like in the first place.

What kept me reading wasn’t their relationship but wanting to find out what happened in her childhood

with her father

to which she kept flashing back. Unfortunately, I thought that reveal was anticlimactic.

I had hoped that there would be more connections between her father and Him to explain her bizarre attachment to Him, but we are really left guessing and filling in the blanks ourselves. I would have loved more concrete flashbacks of what her father was really like at the end of the book, as well.

I may not have enjoyed the experience, but I suspect I'm going to keep thinking about the final few pages of this book. I don't want to reread it, but I am left with questions that might be answered with a reread.

How many memories of her mother were actually of her father? How many times did I think she was talking about Him but was really remembering her father? Did she actually kill Him? What was the "body" at the end? Did she push her father?

Maybe I'll update the review at a later date. 

I wouldn't recommend this as a foray into LitFic, but for my established LitFic pals, you may like the storytelling style and misdirection.

Thank you to Henry Holt & Co and NetGalley for this eARC.