4/5 ⭐ 
3/5 🌶️ 

 Tropes
- grumpy sunshine 
- touch her and die
- brothers best friend 

 📖 My Thoughts
I probably would have given this book five stars had i not been currently halfway through the second book which IS SO MUCH BETTER. so the second book kinda ruined me a bit lol. But I still love a good grumpy sunshine book. I find that it’s the trope I can relate to the most because I get a lot of comments that I’m a sunshine type character and my favourite form of self harm is emotionally unavailable men 🤷‍♀️. I liked the added bit about Ava having a fear of water and I found that I related to her PTSD as I have had a traumatic experience (unrelated to water) but felt like I had experienced what she did. I could not put this book down and I’m excited for the rest of the series! 

 ⚠️ Triggers
Drowning, suicide, overdose, self harm, vengeance, killing, death, guns, poison, sexual harassment 

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️Representation
Female MC is Asian. MMC is first generation Ukrainian immigrant. Beyond that not much else representation detected but I’m white so take this info with a grain of salt. 

 🌶️ Spice
The spice was thereeeee. It was good but it also gave off the vibes that it was a vanilla couple that was like “oh I use handcuffs I’m so kinky!” There was kinky sex but it wasn’t KINKY if you know what I mean. Like the spanking and orgasm control. 

 📝 Special Notes
My library has the audio books free to download an unlimited amount of times so maybe check to see if that’s the same for y’all!