This was … not really how I expected the “story” to go, and while I don’t remember specifics (since I’m writing this 8 months and several books later) I do have a lingering memory of being disappointed.

If I’m remembering right this essentially boiled down to: “I’m going to live a chaste, celibate life, devoid of romantic love.” If that works for you, awesome. But for me, that is one of the more devastating outcomes I can think of for my own life. I’ve been on that other side, but honestly I don’t know if I was ever 1,000% committed to that whole “oh I’ve got God and friends and family and this is all the love and companionship I need” shtick.